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argh..my housemates all went out shopping..left me alone here..i wanna join but my condition not allow me to join...i just can face laptop only..it is too bad!!!why everytime also like this 1!!!when can be better wor my health..haiz..i am still considering this week wanna back bor..but jia gi got back o..if i manage to follow his car then maybe i will back 1...coz i really dun wan to take bus alone..just got nightmare yesterday......

tired

these few days just damn tired..sick+tutorials..totally exhausted...i found that i can be strong oso le...it is a good news for me and for many too...lol..at least,i dun need others to worry for me dy...perhaps la..i believe i am not that no worth...i should go for the one who really cares me..haha..although this might be few years after..lol...

gather v hometown frens

actually friday,i had no class..due to replacement class,i went to uni for 3 hours..who knows my lecturer suddenly wanna add additional class at 1p.m. to 3p.m..but,i promised my frens that i will reach midvalley at 2p.m..so,i called shao jie as i need to wait for him..i din't notice he just pass through me so i called him..lol..i really didn't see him and he said he shy to say 'hi' to me..so noob..lol..

while waiting shao jie,i went to cafeteria and met yong wee..then,jordi came..then,we chit chat for a while...thanks to yong wee gift.it is nice ..jia seng saw me and he said me thin because of my facebook post that dun say me fat..haha..he always like to kidding with me..

after that,we went to midvalley and waited for oldcat n fung..they were so late..we planned for a movie at first..who knows the time doesn't suit them..so,we changed plan..we went sing k after fu chuan reached..it is fun...

thanks oldcat fetch us back setapak..lol..so troublesome for him...i slept after bath because i was really tired..i just woke up and found that i am sick dy..dunno why..

new

finally,i done the cover of my photo album..i had nothing to do while waiting for my cousin to fetch me back..lol..once reached,i started to clean my room,toilet and table..as my housemates were all busy on gaming so i just can climb the chairs and mopped the fan by myself..nearly fall down..luckily din..

as i had the same time slot with cindy so i asked jr to help me print cindy timetable..who knows we have the same time slot but in different class..the first day,i entered wrong class..lol..

today is boss birthday..here,wish him happy birthday..yesterday,we had a gathering and helped my boss to celebrate..hope that everyone feel enjoy there..haha..chee how has been disappeared so long and yesterday he attended..

my hp spoil..will auto close even the battery is still full..even when a msg not yet send out ,it close automatically ..last time my hp is always in silent mood but now is offline mood...lol..but i din plan to change as nowadays i less use my phone so just let it be..damn tired..need a rest and work hard afterwards..

last day of my holiday

today is the last day of my holiday..tomorrow will be new sem again..lol.,i wonder whether i can wake up tomorrow or not as i use to sleep in the midnight during holiday..haha..yesterday i slept at 3.00a.m. again...haha..so late..all also them..keep open conversation..somemore chat in phone for an hour++..so long..i thought today will back pv6 earlier and clean my room 1..but my cousin said 6p.m. so i am blogging here...cause nothing to do now..

random

如果你不爱一个人, 请放手. 好让别人有机会爱她. 如果你爱的人放弃了你, 请放开自己, 好让自己有机会爱别人. 有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的, 有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的. 人生中有许多种. 但别让自己为一种伤害. 有些缘分是注定要失去的, 有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的, 爱一个人不一定要拥有, 但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她. 男人哭了是因为他真的爱了. 女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了. 如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言; 如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默; 如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开. 如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出, 如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束, 如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟 , 如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉, 好多事情都是后来才看清楚, 好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

i saw this post in my facebook and i felt it is quite meaningful..so,i share here...although it is true,it is still hard to do it...

yesterday

dunno why i just awake suddenly around 9 something..then,i waited for my fren to come and fetch me...again,he mistaken,,he thought i was in pv6 so until 1pm he just reached..i said wanna help him to clean house but he pai seh..haha..then,we headed to bukit tinggi jusco lor..by the time,oldcat joined us too..3 of us went sing k..oldcat was so terrible..he drank around 20++ softdrinks..i was stunned there cause he kept drinking..we spent around 5 hours in greenbox then we decided to eat in kimgary..as it was late,so we returned home after eating..i promised shao jie to tell him something if he treated me good..haha..as his performance not bad,so i told him..lol..anyway,really thank you to both of them for their accompanion...

brother

suddenly so miss my brother..tan zyn chuan,i am going to go back and fight bed with u..lol..wait me ya..this time i sure accompany u play whatever u want to play..my fren will have her wedding in this saturday...Here,wish her have a memorable and wonderful wedding ceremony..

10-01-2010

outing again..went sunway with kim,jia gi and yu jin..we din lost and find "BONJUK" successfully..haha..so nice..as kim recently so sot with the korea drama,so she suggested me to go there for lunch..basically,i like the porridge there..it was nice..after that ,jia gi ate in subway but we didn't..then,we bought waffle and ate again..terrible..i was so happy that i found my fren's wedding gift..then,we went to eat "WOK ICE" in "MILK WHEEL" before the movie start..wow..the movie was funny and we laughed all the way until we hungry again..then,we went to PJ to eat "duck rice"..it has been so long time that i didn't eat..so miss the taste there..luckily,we managed to have it..haha..then we think to go ss2 eat again...haha..nearly go but finally we decided to back..haha..basically,whole day just keep eating only..really terrible..

too bored in this morning

the day before i slept at 6a.m and woke up at 9a.m..yesterday i slept at 9p.m and woke up at 6a.m.hehe..totally different time..i am going to crazy soon..lol..my sleeping time all reverse 1.oh my god..i hope i can sleep early for the coming day as uni is going to reopen soon and my class all start at 8a.m or 9a.m..if i sleep late,sure i cant concentrate lar..no more nap also else i cant sleep early on night lar..as my body become weak,this is the first step i am going to do---sleep early ...

feeling on this silent night

after few months,i realize i cant like that anymore.i know i am not like others who protect well from their families..i have to stand up again by myself..and i believe i can do it..the past just will make me even strong..there are so many unhappy things in life and sure there are something that we regret of..anyhow,we cant just stop there and keep on negative thinking..if we do so,we cannot improve and we just will continue sad only..of course,it is easy to say and hard to do..no matter how,i should overcome it although it is hard...in this new year,i will work hard for myself..please support me..i sure can overcome it and get back my confident..nothing can destroy me unless i give up myself..sure,i wun do so..hope all the thing run on smoothly in this new year..

wei xin gathering

last saturday,i went gathering with my secondary school classmates..as it was for wei xin farewell,most of us attended..first,we planned to have bbq in Kelanang..who knows it was raining heavily and we could not make it..so,we went to morib and wished to have some place for us to bbq..yeah,we found it..as most of us were feeling very hungry by the time,so we started immediately..we had fun in between...then,we gave a suprise for wei xin,thian teck and wei ming..because of them,we wasted two cakes..hope that wei xin will remember for the gathering this time..it is just purposely for him..all the best for WEI XIN as he will be in German after this friday...i dunno when is the next time we meet but hope that u will be fine over there..i was happy that i can be strong at the scene..but after that,u all know la..

it is a beautiful night,i stand alone in the balcony of pv10...it is peace..last sem break at the same time and same location,something happen..by looking at the beautiful scene,i recall a lot of things and my mind is just too clear..i have to face the reality...i believe i can do it no matter how..i will see the rainbow after the rain...it is so easy to remember and so hard to forget...i dun wan to forget as it is part of my memories..i should appreciate it..i am trying to make all of us comfortable..so,dun blame me anymore..i know i am useless but please forgive me for making trouble..

quote from kim

i saw this in cheau kim blog...i feel some of the words suit my mood now..so,i share here..guess..which is my mood now


1.我还在原地等你，你却已经忘记曾来过这里。

2.原来地久天长，只是误会一场。

3.痛过之后就不会觉得痛了，有的只会是一颗冷漠的心。

4.没有什么过不去，只是再也回不去。

5.要有多坚强，才敢念念不忘。

6.你是我猜不到的不知所措，我是你想不到的无关痛痒。

7.感情的戏，我没演技。

8.看着别人的故事，流着自己的眼泪。

9.我很好，不吵不闹不炫耀，不要委屈不要嘲笑，也不需要别人知道。

10.我不在乎你对我的不在乎。

11.习惯难受，习惯思念，习惯等你，可是却一直没有习惯看不到你。

12.如花美眷，似水流年。回得了过去，回不了当初。

13.那些最终会让你陷进去的，一开始总是美好。

14.当你做对的时候，没有人会记得；当你做错的时候，连呼吸都是错。

15.我是你转身就忘的路人甲，凭什么陪你蹉跎年华到天涯？

16.一个人只要不再想要，就什么都可以放下。

17.爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

18.童话已经结束，遗忘就是幸福。

19.最初不相识，最终不相认。

20.不被理解的弱小只好一直坚强。

21.不要依赖别人，是你还有人可以依赖的时候才说的出来的。

22.也许走得太远的代价就是寂寞。

23.不要仗着我对你的好向我使坏。

24.不要骗我，你知道即使你的谎话我都会相信。

25.要离开，就请，永远别再回来。

26.和爱的人吵架，和陌生人讲心里话。

27.你不过是仗着我喜欢你。

28.等待你的关心，等到我关上了心。

29.什么叫快乐？就是掩饰自己的悲伤对每个人微笑。　　

30.不幸的人才要更坚强。

31.所谓最难忘的，就是从来不曾想起，却永远也不会忘记。

32.多谢你的绝情，让我学会死心。

33.鱼上钩了，那是因为鱼爱上了渔夫，它愿用生命来博渔夫一笑。

34.人生最遗憾的，莫过于，轻易地放弃了不该放弃的，固执地坚持了不该坚持的。

35.脸上的快乐别人看得到，心里的痛又有谁能感觉到。

36.真心离伤心最近。

37.无法拒绝的是开始，无法抗拒的是结束。

01.01.2010

everything is just impromptu..i received a call from sing fui when i was having my nap..she invited me to go cherating..i asked for my mum permission to go with them.she said ok then i promised sing fui..then,i just packed my bag..

the next day,i followed uncle's car to banting and took bus to asia jaya after that..it was quite a long time that i didn't back to PJ by bus..i scared i miss the station that i need to stop..so,i didn't sleep along the journey and paid attention to the signboard..after that,i met them at Kelana Jaya..argh..sing yaw said i fat jor o..everyone is saying me thin except for him..haha..i think he mistaken lar..maybe too long din see me forget already..

after having breakfast,we headed to our destination..i slept along the journey as i din sleep well for the day before..i wonder why my eyes so swollen..so ,almost all the pics i am with the glasses..we just rented a chalet which cost RM180 per night..after putting our bags there,we watched tv programme which we will never watch in home for a while..then,we went to have some fun on the seaside..it was damn relaxing when we sit on the beach and enjoying the natural view of the surrounding.. i felt calm when hearing the sound of the waves..my mind just suddenly so clear about what i want and what should i do..it is the time to plan for myself..

we went to kuantan to have our dinner..we were satisfing with the dishes as the restaurant was introduced by sing yaw's fren who stay somewhere nearby..after that,we went to his house to have a sit as we got nothing to do..i like the sitting room..it is simple,nice and comfortable..then,we went to teluk cempedak to have a walk..again,beach and sea..we saw a scorpion there and we managed to catch a picture..it was a different feeling that eating ice-cream in the cold weather..lol

i cant sleep well for the whole night as i was too cold...so,i slept at the car for the next day to replace..erm..we went to kemaman to have our breakfast..the shop was crowded as it is famous..i ordered half-boiled egg and the special drink which is cinnamon milk..it was the first time that i needed to cook the half-boiled egg in a shop..the waiter just put the half-boiled egg into hot water then took for us..by the way,the taste of cinnamon milk is quite special for me..i had my dinner at a restaurant..but,i dunno the name..the food is ok..lol..then ,we went to hang around in kepong jusco before our movie..thian loong is joining us..TREASSURE HUNTER,the movie we watched...everyone comment:damn not nice..

this year,i count down in toilet..haha,i was taking bath by that time..the last bath in year 2009 and the first 1 i saw is sing fui in year 2010..thanks to them for this trip..just i drink tea with my frens in hometown..again,we talked non-stop..hehe..our plan still processing,not yet decide which place to go..hehe..again,we talked non-stop..all of us were ordering 2 cups of drink..and due to raining heavily,so we returned home late..it is really nice to talk with them and yumcha together..