It is officially finished jz as this story...wish both of u happy and sweet sweet forever...

深夜，寺里一人一佛，佛坐人站。

　　

人：圣明的佛，我是一个已婚之人，我现在狂热地爱上了另一个女人，我真的不知道该怎幺办。 　　

佛：你能确写你现在爱上的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人吗？ 　　

人：是的。 　　

佛：你离婚，然后娶她。 　　

人：可是我现在的爱人温柔，善良，贤惠，我这样做是否有一点残忍，有一点不道德。 　　

佛：在婚姻中没有爱才是残忍和不道德的，你现在爱上了别人已不爱她了，你这样做是正确的。 　　

人：可是我爱人很爱我，真的很爱我。 　　

佛：那她就是幸福的。 　　

人：我要与她离婚后另娶她人，她应该是很痛苦的又怎幺会是幸福的呢？ 　　

佛：在婚姻里她还拥有她对你的爱，而你在婚姻中已失去对她的爱，因为你爱上了别人，正谓拥有的就是幸福的，失去的才是痛苦的，所以痛苦的人是你。 　　

人：可是我要和她离婚后另娶她人，应该是她失去了我，她应该才是痛苦的。 　　

佛：你错了，你只是她婚姻中真爱的一个具体，当你这个具体不存在的时候，她的真爱会延续到另一个具体，因为她在婚姻中的真爱从没有失去过。所以她才是幸福的而你才是痛苦的。 　　

人：她说过今生只爱我一个，她不会爱上别人的。 　　

佛：这样的话你也说过吗？ 　　

人：我。我。。我。。。 　　

佛：你现在看你面前香炉里的三根蜡烛，那根最亮。 　　

人：我真的不知道，好象都是一样的亮。 　　

佛：这三根蜡烛就好比是三个女人，其中一根就是你现在所爱的那个女人，芸芸众生，女人何止千百万万，你连这三根蜡烛那根最亮都不知道，都不能把你现在爱的人找出来，你为什么又能确定你现在爱的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人呢？ 　　

人：我。我。。我。。。 　　

佛：你现在拿一根蜡烛放在你的眼前，用心看看那根最亮 　　

人：当然是眼前的这根最亮。 　　

佛：你现在把它放回原处，再看看那根最亮 　　

人：我真的还是看不出那根最亮。 　　

佛：其实你刚拿的那根蜡烛就是好比是你现在爱的那个最后的女人，所谓爱由心生，当你感觉你爱她时，你用心去看就觉的它最亮，当你把它放回原处，你却找不到最亮的一点感觉，你这种所谓的最后的唯一的爱只是镜花水月，到头来终究是一场空。 　　

人：哦，我懂了，你并不是要我与我的爱人离婚，你是在点化我， 　　

佛：看破不说破，你去吧 　　

人：我现在真的知道我爱的是谁了，她就是我现在的爱人。 　　

佛：阿弥陀佛，阿弥陀佛

　　你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只是爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她，你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续，他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客

。 　　我们根本无法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜，你身边这个爱你的/你爱的人，在某一天，也会成为你身边的过客

。 　　找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容易。如果无法确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人的时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱他/她的，自然就可以爱上他/她。

　　如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得：爱由心生。是你太过于把目光集中在他/她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光亮的蜡烛到处都有。

　　爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。

　　过去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的一部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中的一粒微尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。

　　珍惜当前，永远胜于三心二意

it has been quite long time that i din update my blog.It is because the medicine which given by doctor are too strong.It made me keep feeling sleepy and therefore i slept quite early everyday...due to this reason,i disappear quite a long time no matter in msn or facebook...there is something that troublesome me and i cant make any decision..should i take external exam next jan?i dun think that i am able to do it..and my condition now not allow me to do it...actually,there is nothing to think about because i just recover 60 % only...i just hope that 18 of december is the last day that i need to see doctor and i am fully recover by the time...ok..well..nvm..how also i have no choice..i can use long time to prepare but once i decide to sit in the exam hall,i am sure that i will pass the paper and get a nice band..i know i will slower than a lot of my frens but it is ok..i just have to compete with myself..In this world,there are so mny ppl better than us..it will be so tiring if we keep comparing with others but it doesn't mean that we are loser.nobody is loser unless they give out themselves..i decide that i just concentrate on my studies and enjoy my uni life with activities..i believe that those experience will be helpful for me on next time..and it will also be a memorable experience for me...i dun wan that my uni life just pack with exams and there is no fun for me...i am not the one who can just face with books and exams..there is many ways to improve ourselves and it is not just with flying colours in test paper..but i know that i have to improve myself in mny aspects..now,i just have to rest well and recover in a short time...

share

just saw kim's blog and i found something quite worth to share.. here,i would like to share with quite a number of sentences..hope u all can get used of it too..it is easy to think but hard to do...

01.每天告诉自己一次，"我真的很不错"


02.生气是拿别人做错的事来惩罚自己


03.生活中若没有朋友，就像生活中没有阳光一样


04.明天的希望，让我们忘了今天的痛苦


05.生活若剥去理想、梦想、幻想，那生命便只是一堆空架子


06.发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光


07.愚者用肉体监视心灵，智者用心灵监视肉体


08.获致幸福的不二法门是珍视你所拥有的、遗忘你所没有的


09.贪婪是最真实的贫穷，满足是最真实的财富


10.你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界


11.人的价值，在遭受诱惑的一瞬间被决定


12.年轻是我们唯一拥有权利去编织梦想的时光


13.青春一经典当即永不再赎


14.没有了爱的语言，所有的文字都是乏味的


15.真正的爱，应该超越生命的长度、心灵的宽度、灵魂的深度


16.爱的力量大到使人忘记一切，却小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石不能容纳


17.当一个人真正觉悟的一刻，他放弃追寻外在世界的?


18.只要有信心，人永远不会挫败


19.不论你在什么时候开始，重要的是开始之后就不要停止


20.不论你在什么时候结束，重要的是结束之后就不要悔恨


21.人若软弱就是自己最大的敌人


22.人若勇敢就是自己最好的朋友


23.『不可能』只存在于蠢人的字典里


24.抱最大的希望，为最大的努力，做最坏的打算


25.家！甜蜜的家！天下最美好的莫过于家


26.游手好闲会使人心智生锈


27.每一件事都要用多方面的角度来看它


28.有理想在的地方，地狱就是天堂


29.有希望在的地方，痛苦也成欢乐


30.所有的胜利，与征服自己的胜利比起来，都是微不足道


31.所有的失败，与失去自己的失败比起来，更是微不足道


32.上帝从不埋怨人们的愚昧，人们却埋怨上帝的不公平


33.美好的生命应该充满期待、惊喜和感激


34.世上最累人的事，莫过于虚伪的过日子


35.觉得自己做的到和不做的到，其实只在精神


36.第一个青春是上帝给的；第二个的青春是靠自己努力的


37.少一点预设的期待，那份对人的关怀会更自在


38.思想如钻子，必须集中在一点钻下去才有力量


39.人只要不失去方向，就不会失去自己


40.如果你曾歌颂黎明，那么也请你拥抱黑夜


41.问候不一定要慎重其事，但一定要真诚感人


42.人生重要的不是所站的位置，而是所朝的方向


43.当你能飞的时候就不要放弃飞


44.当你能梦的时候就不要放弃梦


45.当你能爱的时候就不要放弃爱


46.生命太过短暂，今天放弃了明天不一定能得到


47.天才是百分之一的灵感加上百分之九十九的努力


48.人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的


49.快乐要懂得分享，才能加倍的快乐


50.自己要先看得起自己，别人才会看得起你


51.一个今天胜过两个明天


52.要铭记在心；每天都是一年中最美好的日子


53.乐观者在灾祸中看到机会；悲观者在机会中看到灾祸


54.有勇气并不表示恐惧不存在，而是敢面对恐惧、克服恐惧


55.肯承认错误则错已改了一半


56.明天是世上增值最快的一块土地，因它充满了希望


57.理想的路总是为有信心的人预备着


58.所有欺骗中，自欺是最为严重的


59.人生最大的错误是不断担心会犯错


60.把你的脸迎向阳光，那就不会有阴影


61.经验是由痛苦中粹取出来的


62.用最少的悔恨面对过去


63.用最少的浪费面对现在


64.用最多的梦面对未来


65.快乐不是因为拥有的多而是计较的少


66.你的选择是做或不做，但不做就永远不会有机会


67.如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友


68.不如意的时候不要尽往悲伤里钻，想想有笑声的日子吧


69.把自己当傻瓜，不懂就问，你会学的更多


70.要纠正别人之前，先反省自己有没有犯错


71.因害怕失败而不敢放手一搏，永远不会成功


72.要克服生活的焦虑和沮丧，得先学会做自己的主人


73.你不能左右天气，但你可以主宰心情?


74.孤单寂寞与被遗弃感是最可怕的贫穷


75.想象力比知识更重要


76.漫无目的的生活就像出海航行而没有指南针


77.好好扮演自己的角色，做自己该做的事


78.一切伟大的行动和思想，都有一个微不足道的开始


79.得意时应善待他人，因为你失意时会需要他们


80.学做任何事得按部就班，急不得。

brand new post

here reopen my blog..it has been 2 weeks that i din't smile but it doesn't matter..i believe by end of this week i can fully recover..think from the positive side,this is really a good chance to adjust back my health as i am always weak..besides,i also be more patient now as i know it take time to recover although i very hope that i can smile immediately..anyway,it doesn't matter...i always believe that there is rainbow after the rain just like my name..the rainbow is waiting for me..u will never know how smile is important if u are facing the same disease as me now..so ,my friends,please try to welcome ur days with smile..nothing is more important than smile..i know it after facing this disease..smile is precious...i know i must be strong to overcome it..after that,i will be more tough when facing with difficulties..thanks to those who laugh at me during i face with this disease..it is nothing to laugh at..when u are facing the same thing with me,i dun think u all still can laugh out...anyway,i know how cruel u all are..just ignore...i will be more confident after this as now i also can face with people with this condition..it is just a short period and a big challenge..it will be overcome soon..after the rain,rainbow will be appeared just for me...the day is coming soon..i will replace all my holidays after this..fully enjoy..

everyone is enjoying their wonderful holiday now..how about me?just stay in pv6 with my laptop..my condition not allow me to follow..what can i do?just nothing..everyday when i woke up,i found that all of them around me are going to enjoy their holiday to the max.i thought after my tests,i can same with them too...but things are always not happen as what we imagine..i dun care..at least,every weekend i must back hometown..i dun wan alone to be here anymore..T.T..haiz..think positively,just take this chance to adjust back..jz so unlucky,but at least,i know there are still many take good care of me..so thank you.

a post without content

I neglect my blog again with the same reason---exam..The reason will never be changed..Why?because i am taking a course which is damn heavy...Everytime i updated my blog,there must be a reason--down...Why?i also cant describe..sometimes,it is just a sudden feeling...i felt down due to mny reasons..normally,when my frens with me,i always be the one who laugh all the way..However,it has been quite a few day that i din smile already...nobody know why...becoz i din tell anybody also...just end my postt here..need to continue with my studies again...

tired.......

Dunno why recently keep feeling tired..Yesterday i slept for 13 hours ,i still feel sleepy today..monday test got 11 chapters but i still think to relax for a while..No Choice..Luckily,I have a satisfy dinner with kim,ah pek and ming zhang..it is really a wonderful time..We play,we laugh,we dun care others how see us and just be the way we are..Have a wonderful "Tomyam" meal..All of us also ordered Tomyam dishes..We are all stress due to tests,assignments and so on..As we all planned to stay overnight to do revision,ah pek suggest us to have the hazenut coffee from oldtown..Without hestitation,we bought it..The hazenut Coffee made me stay awake until 6am successfully..hehe..anyway,1 more month..goood luck to everyone

jz a moody day

dunno why..just so down...good news and bad news together...totally no mood...sorry if i ignore u...hope 2molo will be a better day...want to have rest but i have no choice..how am i going to pass this week..thursday test nt yet prepare..this is still ok..but the one on next monday got 11 chapters..how to study..only got 2 and a half days..tired..after next monday ,thursday still got test somemore...after doing online exercise,my mind is tired

suddenly

just so sudden...the song really made me think about our past..so fast...10 months already..i am no longer that one who just keep crying when i saw u..i dunno whether i walk through it already or not..at least,now when i see u,i wun cry..my tear wun drop..both of us have been grow up..i am happy that at least,we are still fren..our past has became a memory..time just past too fast..u have accompanied me for such a long time...and now ,u left..the hurt inside my heart made me grow..thank you..it is just hard to express..u changed a lot n all the best to u..when i saw ur status,i felt like crying..so sorry...the day when u choose to left me,u should expect it..luckily,i am strong enough..i am happy that at least,u still concern me..when i am down,u will talk with me...just so THANK YOU...all the best to u...maybe i need more time to recover...

感言

还记得上个星期的今天,我还在马大与千多人一起过着属于"我们"的生活营.大家还在为了这个有意义的营扮演着自己的角色,为了大家而付出.如今,营结束了.但,属于"我们"的回忆并没因此而结束.最近,营员及工委们都不断地上载在营里的照片及留言.这是个好的开始.蒲公英的种子是需要大家不断地播种才能发光的.也许我们并不能在短时间里看见成果,但我坚信有一天,我们会在不同的角落,闻着蒲公英的芳香,回想起我们一起走过的种种,看着自己及他们的成长并且随着耳边传来的好消息而感到骄傲.这一切都是值得的.也许,我们再也不会相遇了;也许,我们在某一天在世界的某一个角落相遇;也许;我们只能在不同的地方欣赏着同一道彩虹;好多的也许,但也只是个未知数.唯一已发生的是"我们"都在各自的生命里留下了属于"我们"共同的回忆..感谢的话就不多说了..只要心里有那份感激之情就已足够了..希望我们大家都能带着这美丽的回忆一起加油..在无聊时,在面对难题时,在开心时,在伤心时......只要想想我们一起渡过的3天2夜,至少能让我得到一丝丝的安慰及鼓励.偶尔想起,脸上的那一丝微笑就是对这营最大的鼓励了..

胶东的组员

对不起,我忘了拿给你们看.这是东东(叶孙亿)写给你们的.

给胶东的营员:
HELLO!很高兴可以在这个有意义的3天2夜营中认识大家!老实说我不不太记得大家的名字...抱歉啊!可能是因为有点累,所以就没什么说话吧!哈!也可能是因为害怕离别而不敢接近.3天2夜的时间,第一天时不知为什么总觉得时间过得好慢哦!真的好像可以快点回家...可是到了现在,快结束了!可能我们不会再见!可能我们会失去了联络!断了线,我们永远都找不回.可是我相信我们的想念,会为我们连成一条桥.思念的风会带着我们的思念,想念吹过彼此的窗边!我相信咱们会看得见,听得到.星星闪烁的声音,你们是否听得见?那代表着我的心声!我坚信你们是听得到的!结束了,该走了,玩了,完了!离别还是残酷的雨一样滴在地上!天空不想可是还是下了!我不是一个多愁善感的人,我不想哭,可是我不知道我会不会哭..我不喜欢眼泪!离别,可以微笑吗?能做到吗?我不知道!可以边笑边哭!不想分离,可是不得不!只能做到的就只可以祝福!接受我的祝福吧!最后,我想说谢谢+对不起!谢谢你们的包涵,对不起,我的错误....再见与祝福!
叶孙亿上

silent night

now,the time is 3.28a.m...i am still awake now..just woke up as i cant sleep well..dunno why...haiz..i know i am bad..did something that hurt others..but i am just cant control when i am angry...so sorry

feeling

wow..after 12 hours of sleeping,i am awake now..as i was tired,after class i slept again..finally,the camp finished..i am tired but it is worth...thanks to my group members and eveyone..all of you is the main reason of the sucessful of this camp..it is hard to express but thank you...now,it is the time for me to keep my mood and study as it is a new semester again..mz do well in this sem...

again

Due to final exam,it has been quite a long time i neglect my blog..during study week,i studied..exam week,i studied also..but when enter exam hall,the same problem still repeated...haiz...anyway,there are 2 more subjects to go..after that,i might get few day to rest..i am tired no matter from which aspect...anyway,it is just a process..everything will be fine soon..after cleaning my room n house,i felt satisfied..thanks to kah lok for helping me sweep the floor as my nose cannot withstand..now,is the time to do revison...

moody night

haiz..whole noon stayed in study room to complete tutorials..after dinner,assignments again..din rest at all..i am exhausted now..anyway,i have to work hard also as next week got 4 tests..waiting for saturday..i hope to meet nanosaranghe gang and relax for a while as i am too stress recently..hope that everything will get well soon..all the best for actuarial science students...

thank you

here,specially thanks to my housemate JR Tan for bringing me laksa in the morning and helping me to sew my pants..thank you..and making me a cup of nica honey tea..so touch..hehe..next time,i will hear ur advice back home earlier de..n sorry for treating u like that due to my bad mood..u knw who u are..next week have to study more..wish that i can do it

just so fed up this few days..anyway,i have to face it too..just hope that everything will be fine..the weather so hot recently..n one more thing i wish is that i can sleep well n have more sleeping time...dun sick anymore..

i also dunno what happen to me recently...sorry if i did anything over...sad...haiz..

happy sunday

i had a satisfy weekend..yesterday went for badminton n today went to bukit gasing..it is tiring but it is worth..there were something happen yesterday but i dun wish to tell anyone..So,i just kept quiet..please dun make me explode!!!i had a happy sunday morning..here,specially thanks to shuh yun coz he purposely woke up and accompanied me walk to LRT station..i met nanosaranghe gang..and we went to bukit gasing for exercise..after that,we went for dim sum in puchong..it is great..thanks sing yaw,sing fui n sing jian..n here,HAPPY BIRTHDAY to sing jian..

moody noon

totally not in mood now..i am totally lost..how i wish today is saturday and i at home now..unfortunately,i cant..haiz..first time got such feeling...

homesick

i really miss home now..miss my bed,miss my parents and my cute brother...i very less got this kind of feeling..maybe recently too mny things happen in a short while...home is the only place that can let me to hide..at home,i dun need worry about all the things..my parents will settle for me in case of anything happen..they will protect me well..everytime when i face any problems,i will think of my home..now,is the same too..i know i have to solve the problem by myself but i am just too tired..dunno how to describe the feeling oso...

monday

it is raining heavily..perhaps,it should be the best weather to sleep..however,i woke up due to bad dreams and short of electric..luckily,it was just for a while only..if it really continue,i think i will crazy..i slept 2 hours in intermediate calculus lecture..dunno why suddenly feel like so not well..it was raining when i went to take bus and i dun have umbrella..no choice..just make the condition worse only..i oso dunno one month need sick how mny times..hope that i will well soon..i believe i can well soon..lol..

28-2-10

argh..the stupid construction really driving me crazy..force me wake up earlier..i thought i can sleep today ..unfortunately,i cant...so bad..yesterday,after test,i went for movie..overall,the movie is so so only..not same as what i expected..we are so lucky that we still manage to get the sit which is ok for us..the last 2 coz we were late..then,we went to look out point yumcha n met my fren..lol..again,i forgot to bring resident pass..luckily ,there were someone entering blok C too,so that i can followed them..quite lucky..anyway,thanks for the day..

friday morning

it has been long time that i didn't sleep so much...the feeling is really nice although it is just about 10 hours..sleep till headache...hope that i wun sick again...i already sick for few times in 1 month..gonna crazy..my mum will kill me if she knows..anyway,today will be a brand new day...the past has past,just keep it as a memory..lol..i am strong enough...

23/2/2010

i am quite moody maybe cause i am tired..my class started from 8am to 5pm and i just got 1 short break..after class,i spent all my time to finish tutorials yesterday..today will be the same..but,i still cant manage to finish it..i almost cry out when i spent lot of time on solving the problems but i failed to do it..the Theory of Interest really driving me crazy..anyway,i still have to continue with it..perhaps,it will be better after i revise again..just my frens wanna come KL purposely just to have dinner with us..so sorry,i cant make it..

2molo,vinsten will be in korea to further his studies..here,wish him have a safe journey and enjoy his life there..too bad that he cant join us for the coming camp...

cny fun

cny holiday comes to the end..i have to keep my mood for studies..i almost everyday oso hang out with frens in this cny..hehe..

on the first day of cny,ikki,kiang fat,gian ming and yee how come find me..it has been a long time that we din't meet each others...then,yeong shyang and nickson come find me..so long din c nickson as we just meet each others 1 year once de..and that lapsap ikki did a stupid thing...his stupid action really make me sweat lar...anyway,it was really fun..he purposely from kl to here to meet us...at night,i went to gathering with my primary skul frens..i even cant recognize some of them already..really too long din meet..everyone changed...haha.. a lot of leng lui there..

on the second day,i met my cousins ..we chatted for a while then start gamble..after that,i took a nap..then,my cousin woke me up and went to frens there..as i din have enough sleep,i just sit quietly there..but,i met solomon..just want to meet him so i just agree to go..lol..at night,all of us went to oldcat house..as everyone was gambling so i joined too..i oso wonder why my mum din call me return home as it was already 3am..

as my fren win a lot last night,so he treated us the next day..thank you..then,we went dong chan shi..i didn't go out for the whole day on chu si..lol..my mum oso feel strange..then,i went to malacca with frens on thursday and friday...have fun in these days...san dao made us laugh all the way...as i joined them to play in water park in Afamosa,so i dark a lot..OMG..i dun wan !!!i also met jun ren there while i was in that street..last year the same time,i at malacca too..but the things were different already maybe coz the ppl were different already too..hehe..dun said about that sad thing..although i feeling not well,i still joined to play..dun waste ma...my teacher visited me at night..after helping my mum,i felt tired and slept earlier..

anyway,thanks everyone for giving me a happy cny..now,is the time to keep my mood for studies...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

as the weather was too hot,i just slept for few hour yesterday...then,i woke up to eat and planned to finish my tutorials but end up chitchatting with cindy for the whole noon..then,i followed fren's car to tmn sg besi to meet my cousin..luckily,we didn't lost..thank you...u know who u are..lol..thanks for ur "jiang li" too..so suprisingly,we just took around 1 hour plus to reach home...earlier than what i expect..i think want to have a rest but i cant..i have to help my mum to finish those house chores and now i am waiting her to do others thing again...now,i just realize the yam will make my hands itchy and cut onion will make me cry...lol..it is too late to know about it..again,i am so blur...that is y sometimes my mum not dare to ask for my help..i cut my hand again..luckily,just bleeding for a while..my home has changed a lot..and i like the changes too...here,wish all of you have a memorable CHINESE NEW YEAR and HAPPY VALENTINE to those couples..for those who are single like me ,i wish u all can meet the one who are worth soon...


and one more important wish...HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my DADDY..all the best to him...please wish my dady too..hehe

thurs-11.2.2010

arghh...i got the feeling wanna back home immediately now..as many of my frens already in THEIR home ..didn't have a nap as the weather was too hot...i already boring of the dishes in the pv6 shoplot..after class,we found that the refrigerator still got some hotdogs and crapstick..so,i cooked fried meehoon..ooverall,is ok ok lor..now,i just wait to back home and dun want to do anything..jz relax and enjoy..lol

moody wednesday

just woke up from nap..felt very lazy to wake up..no apetite to eat 2day so i decide dun wan eat...dunno y didn't feel hungry at all even my lunch just ate a bit porridge nia..even cant finish oso..so weird..i planned to do few things today but end up lazy..lol...i oso dunno what is the reason...this is my list i wish to complete today:
1)clean room
2)wash clothes
3)complete my TOI,pro n stat2 tutorials
i just done 1 oni

boring sunday

i woke up at 6 something as i slept earlier yesterday...perhaps,i should sleep earlier everyday and not just for yesterday..while waiting for them to go jogging,i searched for some new songs..some of the lyrics is nice...i like the meaning of that song which is by cyndi wang...我很好,那么你呢?just simply like without reason..lol..chinese new year is coming,i guess most of us are waiting to back hometown..i am the same too..my mum keep asking me skip class and go back earlier but i still decide to back on friday as i dun wish to take bus..because i can imagine that the situation will be terrible..so,i will wait for cousin..so boring here..lol

saturday

i woke up at 1 something because i slept late yesterday..today,i will sleep before 12a.m..i wun lose one..lol..tomorrow i will follow housemates to FRIM and i wish to cycling..as i woke up late,so my breakfast+lunch=milo+biscuit..dunno why the shops here all closed..so ,i asked shao jie for dinner later as i still owe him one meal..finally,he settled our melaka trip..no more open his mouth and at air when we ask him about the trip..lol..continue my tutorials...i found one song not bad which is 假如 by 信乐团..if u guys are free can try to listen..

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argh..dunno y just feel very tired..i am totally blur in theory of interest class...how come??have to work hard dy...lot of tutorials waiting for me..go for a nap first then just continue...everything will be fine..jz like 2 years ago..lol..waiting for 2molo.....

satisfy weekend

wow..i din online for few days dy because i din bring laptop back..last friday,i took bus back and it took around 5 hours..omg..nearly faint..i wonder how am i going to back during the day before cny...just reached home for an hour,i followed my parents to aunty house in klang again..during the way back,my dad car spoil at half way..so,we just waited cousin there to settle the problem..finally,i reached home again and it was already 3a.m..whole day just sit on the car so tired..

the next day,i woke up earlier and followed mum go market ...then,i continued sleep again..my mum kept asking me for help so i didn't sleep much too..then,i went drink tea with my frens till quite late also..after that,i chat with my cousin again..haha..pillow talk till morning...

due to my cousin's request so i did sushi for her as she pregnant..lol...spent my whole afternoon for making sushi..then,i went yumcha with frens again..but,i lost my keys..they kept laughing me...

just i followed oldcat car ..he told me the time is 10a.m so i woke up at 9a.m...but,he overslept so we just waited him ..really thanks a lot to shao jie n oldcat...we went for movie too..as i just slept 3 hours oni..now,i was so blur.

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argh..my housemates all went out shopping..left me alone here..i wanna join but my condition not allow me to join...i just can face laptop only..it is too bad!!!why everytime also like this 1!!!when can be better wor my health..haiz..i am still considering this week wanna back bor..but jia gi got back o..if i manage to follow his car then maybe i will back 1...coz i really dun wan to take bus alone..just got nightmare yesterday......

tired

these few days just damn tired..sick+tutorials..totally exhausted...i found that i can be strong oso le...it is a good news for me and for many too...lol..at least,i dun need others to worry for me dy...perhaps la..i believe i am not that no worth...i should go for the one who really cares me..haha..although this might be few years after..lol...

gather v hometown frens

actually friday,i had no class..due to replacement class,i went to uni for 3 hours..who knows my lecturer suddenly wanna add additional class at 1p.m. to 3p.m..but,i promised my frens that i will reach midvalley at 2p.m..so,i called shao jie as i need to wait for him..i din't notice he just pass through me so i called him..lol..i really didn't see him and he said he shy to say 'hi' to me..so noob..lol..

while waiting shao jie,i went to cafeteria and met yong wee..then,jordi came..then,we chit chat for a while...thanks to yong wee gift.it is nice ..jia seng saw me and he said me thin because of my facebook post that dun say me fat..haha..he always like to kidding with me..

after that,we went to midvalley and waited for oldcat n fung..they were so late..we planned for a movie at first..who knows the time doesn't suit them..so,we changed plan..we went sing k after fu chuan reached..it is fun...

thanks oldcat fetch us back setapak..lol..so troublesome for him...i slept after bath because i was really tired..i just woke up and found that i am sick dy..dunno why..

new

finally,i done the cover of my photo album..i had nothing to do while waiting for my cousin to fetch me back..lol..once reached,i started to clean my room,toilet and table..as my housemates were all busy on gaming so i just can climb the chairs and mopped the fan by myself..nearly fall down..luckily din..

as i had the same time slot with cindy so i asked jr to help me print cindy timetable..who knows we have the same time slot but in different class..the first day,i entered wrong class..lol..

today is boss birthday..here,wish him happy birthday..yesterday,we had a gathering and helped my boss to celebrate..hope that everyone feel enjoy there..haha..chee how has been disappeared so long and yesterday he attended..

my hp spoil..will auto close even the battery is still full..even when a msg not yet send out ,it close automatically ..last time my hp is always in silent mood but now is offline mood...lol..but i din plan to change as nowadays i less use my phone so just let it be..damn tired..need a rest and work hard afterwards..

last day of my holiday

today is the last day of my holiday..tomorrow will be new sem again..lol.,i wonder whether i can wake up tomorrow or not as i use to sleep in the midnight during holiday..haha..yesterday i slept at 3.00a.m. again...haha..so late..all also them..keep open conversation..somemore chat in phone for an hour++..so long..i thought today will back pv6 earlier and clean my room 1..but my cousin said 6p.m. so i am blogging here...cause nothing to do now..

random

如果你不爱一个人, 请放手. 好让别人有机会爱她. 如果你爱的人放弃了你, 请放开自己, 好让自己有机会爱别人. 有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的, 有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的. 人生中有许多种. 但别让自己为一种伤害. 有些缘分是注定要失去的, 有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的, 爱一个人不一定要拥有, 但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她. 男人哭了是因为他真的爱了. 女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了. 如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言; 如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默; 如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开. 如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出, 如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束, 如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟 , 如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉, 好多事情都是后来才看清楚, 好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

i saw this post in my facebook and i felt it is quite meaningful..so,i share here...although it is true,it is still hard to do it...

yesterday

dunno why i just awake suddenly around 9 something..then,i waited for my fren to come and fetch me...again,he mistaken,,he thought i was in pv6 so until 1pm he just reached..i said wanna help him to clean house but he pai seh..haha..then,we headed to bukit tinggi jusco lor..by the time,oldcat joined us too..3 of us went sing k..oldcat was so terrible..he drank around 20++ softdrinks..i was stunned there cause he kept drinking..we spent around 5 hours in greenbox then we decided to eat in kimgary..as it was late,so we returned home after eating..i promised shao jie to tell him something if he treated me good..haha..as his performance not bad,so i told him..lol..anyway,really thank you to both of them for their accompanion...

brother

suddenly so miss my brother..tan zyn chuan,i am going to go back and fight bed with u..lol..wait me ya..this time i sure accompany u play whatever u want to play..my fren will have her wedding in this saturday...Here,wish her have a memorable and wonderful wedding ceremony..

10-01-2010

outing again..went sunway with kim,jia gi and yu jin..we din lost and find "BONJUK" successfully..haha..so nice..as kim recently so sot with the korea drama,so she suggested me to go there for lunch..basically,i like the porridge there..it was nice..after that ,jia gi ate in subway but we didn't..then,we bought waffle and ate again..terrible..i was so happy that i found my fren's wedding gift..then,we went to eat "WOK ICE" in "MILK WHEEL" before the movie start..wow..the movie was funny and we laughed all the way until we hungry again..then,we went to PJ to eat "duck rice"..it has been so long time that i didn't eat..so miss the taste there..luckily,we managed to have it..haha..then we think to go ss2 eat again...haha..nearly go but finally we decided to back..haha..basically,whole day just keep eating only..really terrible..

too bored in this morning

the day before i slept at 6a.m and woke up at 9a.m..yesterday i slept at 9p.m and woke up at 6a.m.hehe..totally different time..i am going to crazy soon..lol..my sleeping time all reverse 1.oh my god..i hope i can sleep early for the coming day as uni is going to reopen soon and my class all start at 8a.m or 9a.m..if i sleep late,sure i cant concentrate lar..no more nap also else i cant sleep early on night lar..as my body become weak,this is the first step i am going to do---sleep early ...

feeling on this silent night

after few months,i realize i cant like that anymore.i know i am not like others who protect well from their families..i have to stand up again by myself..and i believe i can do it..the past just will make me even strong..there are so many unhappy things in life and sure there are something that we regret of..anyhow,we cant just stop there and keep on negative thinking..if we do so,we cannot improve and we just will continue sad only..of course,it is easy to say and hard to do..no matter how,i should overcome it although it is hard...in this new year,i will work hard for myself..please support me..i sure can overcome it and get back my confident..nothing can destroy me unless i give up myself..sure,i wun do so..hope all the thing run on smoothly in this new year..

wei xin gathering

last saturday,i went gathering with my secondary school classmates..as it was for wei xin farewell,most of us attended..first,we planned to have bbq in Kelanang..who knows it was raining heavily and we could not make it..so,we went to morib and wished to have some place for us to bbq..yeah,we found it..as most of us were feeling very hungry by the time,so we started immediately..we had fun in between...then,we gave a suprise for wei xin,thian teck and wei ming..because of them,we wasted two cakes..hope that wei xin will remember for the gathering this time..it is just purposely for him..all the best for WEI XIN as he will be in German after this friday...i dunno when is the next time we meet but hope that u will be fine over there..i was happy that i can be strong at the scene..but after that,u all know la..

it is a beautiful night,i stand alone in the balcony of pv10...it is peace..last sem break at the same time and same location,something happen..by looking at the beautiful scene,i recall a lot of things and my mind is just too clear..i have to face the reality...i believe i can do it no matter how..i will see the rainbow after the rain...it is so easy to remember and so hard to forget...i dun wan to forget as it is part of my memories..i should appreciate it..i am trying to make all of us comfortable..so,dun blame me anymore..i know i am useless but please forgive me for making trouble..

quote from kim

i saw this in cheau kim blog...i feel some of the words suit my mood now..so,i share here..guess..which is my mood now


1.我还在原地等你，你却已经忘记曾来过这里。

2.原来地久天长，只是误会一场。

3.痛过之后就不会觉得痛了，有的只会是一颗冷漠的心。

4.没有什么过不去，只是再也回不去。

5.要有多坚强，才敢念念不忘。

6.你是我猜不到的不知所措，我是你想不到的无关痛痒。

7.感情的戏，我没演技。

8.看着别人的故事，流着自己的眼泪。

9.我很好，不吵不闹不炫耀，不要委屈不要嘲笑，也不需要别人知道。

10.我不在乎你对我的不在乎。

11.习惯难受，习惯思念，习惯等你，可是却一直没有习惯看不到你。

12.如花美眷，似水流年。回得了过去，回不了当初。

13.那些最终会让你陷进去的，一开始总是美好。

14.当你做对的时候，没有人会记得；当你做错的时候，连呼吸都是错。

15.我是你转身就忘的路人甲，凭什么陪你蹉跎年华到天涯？

16.一个人只要不再想要，就什么都可以放下。

17.爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

18.童话已经结束，遗忘就是幸福。

19.最初不相识，最终不相认。

20.不被理解的弱小只好一直坚强。

21.不要依赖别人，是你还有人可以依赖的时候才说的出来的。

22.也许走得太远的代价就是寂寞。

23.不要仗着我对你的好向我使坏。

24.不要骗我，你知道即使你的谎话我都会相信。

25.要离开，就请，永远别再回来。

26.和爱的人吵架，和陌生人讲心里话。

27.你不过是仗着我喜欢你。

28.等待你的关心，等到我关上了心。

29.什么叫快乐？就是掩饰自己的悲伤对每个人微笑。　　

30.不幸的人才要更坚强。

31.所谓最难忘的，就是从来不曾想起，却永远也不会忘记。

32.多谢你的绝情，让我学会死心。

33.鱼上钩了，那是因为鱼爱上了渔夫，它愿用生命来博渔夫一笑。

34.人生最遗憾的，莫过于，轻易地放弃了不该放弃的，固执地坚持了不该坚持的。

35.脸上的快乐别人看得到，心里的痛又有谁能感觉到。

36.真心离伤心最近。

37.无法拒绝的是开始，无法抗拒的是结束。

01.01.2010

everything is just impromptu..i received a call from sing fui when i was having my nap..she invited me to go cherating..i asked for my mum permission to go with them.she said ok then i promised sing fui..then,i just packed my bag..

the next day,i followed uncle's car to banting and took bus to asia jaya after that..it was quite a long time that i didn't back to PJ by bus..i scared i miss the station that i need to stop..so,i didn't sleep along the journey and paid attention to the signboard..after that,i met them at Kelana Jaya..argh..sing yaw said i fat jor o..everyone is saying me thin except for him..haha..i think he mistaken lar..maybe too long din see me forget already..

after having breakfast,we headed to our destination..i slept along the journey as i din sleep well for the day before..i wonder why my eyes so swollen..so ,almost all the pics i am with the glasses..we just rented a chalet which cost RM180 per night..after putting our bags there,we watched tv programme which we will never watch in home for a while..then,we went to have some fun on the seaside..it was damn relaxing when we sit on the beach and enjoying the natural view of the surrounding.. i felt calm when hearing the sound of the waves..my mind just suddenly so clear about what i want and what should i do..it is the time to plan for myself..

we went to kuantan to have our dinner..we were satisfing with the dishes as the restaurant was introduced by sing yaw's fren who stay somewhere nearby..after that,we went to his house to have a sit as we got nothing to do..i like the sitting room..it is simple,nice and comfortable..then,we went to teluk cempedak to have a walk..again,beach and sea..we saw a scorpion there and we managed to catch a picture..it was a different feeling that eating ice-cream in the cold weather..lol

i cant sleep well for the whole night as i was too cold...so,i slept at the car for the next day to replace..erm..we went to kemaman to have our breakfast..the shop was crowded as it is famous..i ordered half-boiled egg and the special drink which is cinnamon milk..it was the first time that i needed to cook the half-boiled egg in a shop..the waiter just put the half-boiled egg into hot water then took for us..by the way,the taste of cinnamon milk is quite special for me..i had my dinner at a restaurant..but,i dunno the name..the food is ok..lol..then ,we went to hang around in kepong jusco before our movie..thian loong is joining us..TREASSURE HUNTER,the movie we watched...everyone comment:damn not nice..

this year,i count down in toilet..haha,i was taking bath by that time..the last bath in year 2009 and the first 1 i saw is sing fui in year 2010..thanks to them for this trip..just i drink tea with my frens in hometown..again,we talked non-stop..hehe..our plan still processing,not yet decide which place to go..hehe..again,we talked non-stop..all of us were ordering 2 cups of drink..and due to raining heavily,so we returned home late..it is really nice to talk with them and yumcha together..